Simple Pleasures

First post of 2012 (aren't you excited?!?)

2012-01-10T18:05:00.000-08:00

Admittedly, my blog posts have been seriously lacking. Bummer. I have such grand plans and I really enjoy writing, but alas... the time gets away from me. This school year, for whatever reason (and there are many!), has been kicking my butt! New school, new coworkers, new routines, new curriculum, new parents, new community, etc. So, the blogging has taken a back seat. Until now, that is. Reading one of my favorite teaching blogs, Clutter-Free Classroom, I came upon a challenge... de-clutter your classroom! I'm in. Week one is to photograph your classroom, a la "before" pictures. Here we go... (oh, and here is the link to the web site)

Bulletin boards behind my desk, where I stick important dates, etc.

Two computers, reading posters, bookcase ready to be assembled.

Not looking too bad, but not how I'd like it.

Ugh. The closet. All those shelves are handy, but aren't organized.

Looks decent, but could use some labels on those drawers.

Area behind my desk, not too bad, but lots of stacks.

Counter...

And, there it is. I'm assuming later there will be "after" pics. Hopefully I'll be able to stick with it. I'm a little nervous that I'll fall behind her schedule, but I'm ready to give it a shot. Imagine how neat and organized I'll be!

Completely Random...

2011-08-08T20:26:00.000-07:00

Everyone says this, but really? April? That's the last time I wrote anything? Well, tonight I have extremely random stuff. Nothing really important. But, nonetheless, here's what's on my mind tonight:.

*I really don't get how Shazam works. I mean, how does it know all those songs? I even try and trick it to see if it knows basic songs. My latest "find" is "Lost in My Mind" by The Head And The Heart. Really good app when I remember to use it.

*How do all these people on Bachelor/Bachelorette know each other? Once you're on, it must just be some big major party all the time. Yes, watching right now.

*I went bowling today. Honestly don't know how it happened, but I got four strikes and three spares in one game. What the heck?!

*Saw the Blue Angels last Friday. It didn't work out exactly like we were hoping, but we saw a good portion of the show. Loud, fast, close, American. Loved it. Plans for next year have already been discussed.

*Had lots of fun playing softball last night. My team has some good peeps on it.

*Bought a Groupon to Hot Yoga with my sister. Never done it. My little sister did it earlier this summer, she liked it, so we'll see...

*School starts Aug. 31st.

*Going to Spider Lake in MI next week. Big vacation of the summer. Looking forward to relaxing, lounging, reading, swimming, and hanging out with James.

*I read a book called Room... couldn't put it down. Not totally sure what my final verdict is, but you should check it out.

*I wish I could tell you that I did something awesome this summer, like jumping out of an airplane or learning to juggle or went swimming with sharks or ran a marathon or SOMETHING! But, I got nothin'.

*This summer went by really fast. Screamed by. And the crummy weather certainly didn't help.

*My heart hurts for the Navy SEALs.

*Shawn Palmer, praying for you and your comrades in Afghanistan. Hurry home, brother. We're loving on Cheri for you.

*I've spent a lot of time this summer with a 7 year old and an 11 year old. It's been fantastic.

*Umm, I love laughing. Had a GREAT laughing fit with my sister and two others today... all through email :)

*I'm back in physical therapy... hopefully progress is made. (for my neck/shoulders, in case you're wondering).

*Anyone else look for grammar mistakes on reader boards and menus? No? Try it. It's fun.

*I went to church on Sunday after having missed for 2-3 weeks. Good songs with a good singer. Good message, too.

*In July I went on a short trip to Florida. Saw some beautiful sunsets. Sang Neil Diamond with my dad. I miss my dad.

*We rented a rowboat and rowed (paddled, actually) through the Arboretum. Saw the eagle on the drive back to Kirkland. Turned out it was a couple of days before he was hit :(

*The newspaper, coffee, early morning, and the two cats is still one of my simple pleasures.

Told ya this would be pretty uninteresting :) Just wanted to get back into the swing of things. Hope your summer has been good. I've enjoyed the warm days/nights (when we've had them!) with James, the boys, my family, and friends.

Talk to you again soon.

Life, so far...

2011-04-05T11:24:00.000-07:00

41. Forty-one years old. Born in 1970. Wow.

So, in honor of, well... me, here's a list of what I've learned thus far in my life. In no particular order, mind you.

1. It's a good idea to have multiple pairs of sunglasses. Especially living here. You never know when the sun will poke its head out, and when it does, it can be blinding. You'll want the shades.

2. Beverly Hills, 90210 was a really good show. The old one. Not the current one. Wait - is the current one even still on?? And if so, why?

3. Pets are awesome. And necessary.

4. The smell of freshly mowed grass is good for the soul.

5. Giving compliments can make you feel good. Especially when given to strangers.

6. Receiving compliments ain't too bad either...

7. Reading is one of the best gifts God gave us.

8. Wine, too. :)

9. Having friends who love you and accept you for who you are is priceless.

10. There is nothing like the crack of a bat in spring. Well, except for the slap of a hockey puck in the fall for some people.

11. Owning a good, favorite pair of jeans is a must for everyone!

12. You should treat yourself to a massage every now and then. Massage = bliss.

13. Gossip really IS painful. At any age, it turns out.

14. Finding someone you can laugh with is of utmost importance.

15. Shockingly, we do turn into our parents. I can't believe some of the words/phrases that come out of my mouth when addressing my students. Ack!

16. Manners count.

17. I Want You Back is a really, really good song. I mean, obviously. Duh.

18. When you get a manicure with freshly painted pink fingernails, and two girls in your class come to school the next day with their own freshly painted pink fingernails... well, that's pretty cool.

19. Saying, "I'm sorry," can be life-saving. Or at least relationship-saving.

20. When all else fails, go shopping.

21. Learning to stick up for yourself is liberating.

22. Church is a good thing. Especially when I think about all the friends I've made at mine.

23. Keeping on top of your finances is a smart idea. Even though paying bills is a joy-sucker, it sure feels good when you're done.

24. If you're sick, stay home from work. And school.

25. On the couch, snuggled up, with a blanket and your favorite person, while it's pouring down rain outside, is a great way to spend a lazy afternoon.

26. Growing up in a smallish town and working in that same small town is kind of cool!

27. Sun-block and a good moisturizer really do make a difference.

28. When you keep the change that was mistakenly given back to you, well, that's wrong.

29. Sometimes a good cry is just what the doctor ordered.

30. But after #29, make sure to sing really loudly to your favorite song. And for that, see #17.

31. You CAN make it through whatever hardship you're enduring. Trust me.

32. It's ok to say "I love you". Do it often. But mean it when you do.

33. Edamame at Red Hook, on the deck, when the sun is shining, with a cold beer, may just in fact be a little slice of heaven.

34. Take care of your knees. And your back.

35. Learn your parents' stories. They really were pretty cool people before they had us!

36. If I want my car to last, I need to stay on top of the maintenance and change the oil regularly.

37. Be nice.

38. Riding bikes while wearing thongs (flip-flops now, I know!) can be dangerous. Lesson learned.

39. Before turning on the sprinkler, you might want to check and make sure that all the windows are closed. Just sayin'.

40. We're never done learning and growing - how cool is that?

41. And finally... love really is all you need.

There you have it. Print this out and put it on your fridge. I've now solved all your problems. You're welcome!

Another side of the story...

2011-02-21T07:51:00.000-08:00

I'm surrounded by kids every day. From 9:10 to 3:35, 26 students come to me and rely on me for multiple things.

Every other Sunday I serve in the 9-12 month baby room at my church. For about an hour and a half, I hold babies, play with them, rock them, sometimes feed them, occasionally change them.

I have a niece and a nephew. I'm close to them. I've been fortunate to be in their lives since they were born; I was present at both of their births.

Most of my friends have children, ranging from one year olds to college age.

I see children everywhere. Parks, grocery stores, sidewalks, malls, etc.

Skipping rocks, chasing dogs, eating ice-cream, having meltdowns, holding their mommy or daddy's hands.

And my heart aches.

Being childless is an interesting position.

People think I'm young enough and have plenty of time. Or that I don't want kids of my own. Or that when I'm married I'll have a child. Or that I'm "lucky" I have so much free time. Or that it's nice because I can be around my friends' kids and then go back home when I've had enough.

When offering an opinion about managing children or setting boundaries or giving consequences or working with children on homework or any number of other things, I've been asked, "Do you have children?" And when the answer is no, I can see the shift in the eyes, the raised eyebrows, the slight dismissal, the expression and tone of voice that says, "Ohhh. Then you don't really know what you're talking about."

When I was growing up and in high school, I wanted to be the mom that goes to all the sporting events, that volunteers in the school, that drives kids around, that had the house that my children's friends hung out in.

I knew I had fertility issues, that getting pregnant wasn't going to be easy. When I was married, I tried three times to get pregnant with fertility drugs, giving myself daily shots and going to many, many dr. appointments. No dice. It was a bad marriage, I was divorced before my fourth wedding anniversary, so it's probably best that I didn't get pregnant.

You can adopt. You have time. You can go to a sperm donor.

Umm.... it's not that easy.

I'm almost 42. Old in baby terms. Too many medical issues that can occur, for both the baby and me. Plus there's the whole fertility thing. Time and money.

Adoption on my own? Not what I want. I wanted to have a child with a man who loves me, to raise a child together. To be mommy and daddy.

Things change as time moves on. Priorities shift.

I am with a man I've been in love with for over three years. I admire him, respect him, laugh with him, lean on him, have a life with him. We enjoy many things together. He has two sons, and I've gotten to know them over the past couple of years. I get to be around them in the summer and the three of us are building our own relationship. It's good.

My relationship with James is fulfilling, joyful, solid. The two of us will continue to build our lives together and experience many things together. The good and the bad. I would not trade it for anything. I'm thankful for it every day. Our lives are rich. We are blessed.

Yet, there remains a little sadness.

I miss the idea of working on homework with my son. Of putting pigtails in my daughter's hair. Of going to school recitals. Of wiping tears. Of hearing first words. Of knowing a kid has my eyes or laugh or sarcasm or sensitivity. Of sharing books together.

I'd like the chance to screw up my own kid :)

I'd like to know that I've influenced a child, that I've given him a foundation, values to build on.

So, if I get quiet, or excuse myself from a conversation about the best way to deal with tantrums, or tear up during baby dedications at church, or get tired of baby showers, or have just the tiniest bit of resentment toward people and their pregnancies, forgive me. It'll pass.

Know that I'm good. Know that I have a love for life. Know that I'm regaining the happiness in my life. Know that I'm in a good place. Know that I'm surrounded by friends and family who I love, and who love me. Know that I laugh daily (or pretty close!).

Also know that being childless can hurt and we don't always know the back story.

Love you. xo

(for some reason, I like this picture!)

Wondering....

2011-02-14T05:49:00.000-08:00

Why is it that when those in the education field talk about pay or stipends, the response from the public is either, "Well, you knew what you were getting into when you signed up for this gig," or something along the lines of teaching children is what should matter, not the paycheck?

Do teachers not have to pay mortgage? Do they not have to pay doctor's bills and insurance? Do they not have to buy groceries and pay for car repairs?

Teachers have to make it in this economy just like everyone else. It seems, though, that if the "compensation" word comes up (or any word associated with it), we're all of a sudden money-hungry, vacation-loving, work only six-hours-a-day people.

Honestly. Give me a break.

Ok, I'm done now. Back to the morning paper and my cup of coffee.

Happy Valentine's Day to you :)

Mama always said there'd be days like these

2011-02-09T06:28:00.000-08:00

Awake at 1:30 am.

Still awake at 2:30 am.

Turned on the light to read until 3:00 am.

Mind racing with "stuff".

Prayed and pleaded for two more hours of sleep.

Coffee at 5:30 am.

Mesopotamia projects to grade. Explorer projects to grade.

Science test to prepare for. Two social studies tests to prepare for. Math test to prepare for.

Big (big) biography reports to be completed (two different ones).

Novel to finish (Fever 1793 - it's good - kids and I really like it!).

Five meetings in the next week.

Emails to send and reply to. Physical therapy to get to. Phone calls to make.

I'm tired already.

And in the midst of all this? A birthday dinner for my mom. American Idol on tv. Yay!

And coffee. God bless the coffee!

This Book

2011-02-07T06:38:00.001-08:00

Have you seen/heard about/or read this book?

I noticed it on a few students' desks in my classroom. When I asked about it, they told me it's about kids being put into a big arena and fighting to the death to save their families. Ugh, is what I thought.

Then I saw an article in a magazine about it. Interest piqued. I spied it in our book room at school. I found out Lisa and Jay were reading it. So I started.

I seriously could not put it down. I had to finish it.

Last Tuesday I told my students I had read the book over the weekend. Many more were interested. I emphatically suggested (over and over) that they ask their parents if they could read it before they started. Cuz, you know, there is some violence in there. And the whole premise is about survival. About being the last one standing, when all the other children in the book have been killed.

Several students asked for the copy I had, but the aide in my room, Mrs. G., read it first. Overnight. She couldn't put it down either. On Wednesday, two students in my room had a copy. On Thursday, two more. And on Friday, one more.

It's the new craze in room C204. It reminds me of another series that was wildly popular.... and then I found this picture:

I read the second book in the series over this past weekend. I'm anxiously awaiting the third book... (go, Lisa, hurry up and finish it!).

Happy reading!

Musings on Life

2011-02-06T12:20:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking about this for a while, kind of been brewing in my head for a bit...

In a recent conversation, the other person stated, "I'm so used to having something bad in my life, I'm not sure how to not have that." Well, the statement might not have been exactly in those words, but that's what I remember.

It's what stuck out and stuck with me because I think I'm in the same exact boat. For so long I've had painful circumstances... it's what I'm used to. It's what I know.

Parents divorced, brother died, dad remarried and had a baby, baby given up for adoption, dad moved across the country, my unhappy marriage, fertility issues, going through divorce from abusive marriage, losing my teaching partner and friend to another school, dad had stroke, health concerns in spinal area, to name a few....

This has been a particularly trying and stressful fall. A pretty difficult three or four months. But I feel like I'm on the upswing, I've turned the corner.

I'm a teacher. Math, reading, writing, grammar, social studies, science, health, spelling, handwriting. Manners, social skills, kindness, acceptance, hard work, responsibility, confidence, empathy. I have 5th and 6th graders this year. They are awesome. Good things happen in my classroom. It's an honor to teach the future of our country, and I'm good. I know my stuff. And I work with colleagues who are excellent teachers, and who are eager to learn, grow, and perfect our craft even further. That's pretty cool.

I'm surrounded by family. My sister. She's the epitome of a big sister; she watches out for me, gives advice, and would take out anyone who dares to hurt her little sissy in any way. I'm blessed with a brother-in-law, niece and nephew as well. My mom is a rock star. Seriously. The day she isn't here anymore, I'll need to be committed, I'm sure. My dad and his wife live across the country, but it's ok. He and I are mending our relationship, are building on what is already there.

I've got James. Love him. Am thankful for him. Never will be without him. 'Nuff said.

I have good friends. I go to a great church. I'm learning more about faith and have been working on leaning into God (love that phrase).

So, why hang on to the sadness, the hurt? Have I had some crappy things in my life? Yep. Are there still some things that I'm kind of sad about. Uh-huh. And what am I gonna do about it??

I'm going to change my way of thinking about it.

My experiences with my job are giving me more confidence in my teaching, in my knowledge and in my abilities. I know what is reasonable in my classroom. I know what is expected. I know what the realities are in education. I'm moving forward with all of those things in mind. I'm appreciative of the parent support I've received and friendships I've made along the way.

I've got some things to watch (medically) in my spine. But I'm on them. Other than that, I'm healthy. So, floss my teeth, take care of my skin, eat my calcium supplements, and get off my butt and stay healthy. There.

Relish my family. All of those I've mentioned above and my newly found little sister. Take joy in how similar she and I are, and be thankful for the opportunity to have her back in my life. Hug those close to me, spend time with my mom, laugh with my niece and nephew, be thankful I have the big sister I do.

Be secure in the future James and I have. Daydream and look forward to vacations together, a home together, walks and talks together. Get to know his boys more and feel blessed to share in their lives. Know that not everyone finds the person who continually has your back, you knows you so well, who supports you through life, and who makes you laugh. Thank God that the two of us have.

Marvel at sunsets, laugh with my students, enjoy the guilty pleasure of reality tv, drink coffee, sip wine, ride my bike, look at the water, sing to Jackson 5 songs, eat ice cream, smile.

Embrace happiness.

My sister used to always tell me she couldn't wait for me to be 40. When I'm 40, she said, I'd be over all the superficial things in life and realize what's important. Well, I'm closing in on 41.... and I think I'm on my way.

(I debated on whether to post this, to share it all. But then I figured, maybe someone will get something out of it, maybe it'll touch someone. Who knows?)

Shame - get rid of it

2011-01-02T20:02:00.000-08:00

First church service of the new year today. It felt like forever since I'd been there. By the time I walked in, the music was already playing... I Am a Temple (great song, love it).

I'm sure there are people who received a different message than me, but what I got from Jeremy today, what stuck with me, was thinking about shame and how it affects us. Basically, he said that when we give in to the feeling of shame (or being shameful), all it does is disconnect us from people around us. Which is true. If my friends/coworkers/family only knew what I did/said/thought, they would think ill of me. They wouldn't love or support me anymore. They wouldn't like me. That was the example that was used.

So true - he nailed it on the head when he said that. That's exactly the fear that is felt.

Which reminds me of a saying that James is fond of: "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." Dr. Seuss

Important message, good one to start off the new year. It's time to kick "shame" in the butt! :)

Merry Christmas to You

2010-12-24T09:56:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve morning... my tree lights are on, Christmas music playing, a time for peaceful reflection.

Sometimes at Christmas I get a little down. I'm sure I'm not the only one; it seems to be a natural thing for a lot of us. I miss my brother. Can't quitebelieve it's been 27 years since he died. Crazy. I think about what our adult relationship would be like. I think about enjoying sporting events with him. I imagine all the sarcastic comments we would make to each other. I wonder if he would build me bookcases or coffee tables. I think about being an aunt to his kids. I miss having someone that looks like me (or who I look like). I love him.

This fall has been difficult and challenging at work. Feeling a lot of pressure and sadly, some of the joy of my job has escaped me. I don't like that and am working on getting it back. My students this year are awesome. Really. They are funny, kind, generous, intelligent. They enjoy one another and are supportive of their classmates. They make me smile every day and they remind me of the joy of life. There is more to teaching than test scores. The conversations we have in class, well, they're hard to explain. But my students are great and it's a pleasure to teach them. How lucky I am to have an impact on their lives and learning. I so appreciate the parents of my students as well. I'm blessed to have their support and to enjoy the growing friendships with them. My job is pretty sweet and I'm thankful to get to do what I do.

Last weekend was spent with old friends I grew up with. Some I haven't seen in over 25 years. Seven of us came together for a few days and enjoyed food, drink, laughter, and memories. We all turned out pretty cool, if you ask me.

I'm lucky to have a wonderful circle of friends. Old friends from high school, friends from work, and friends from church. A friend through Facebook, even (we share the same name!).

Last night I had dinner with my sisters and their significant others. That's right, sisterS. I held my little half-sister in the hospital when she was born, before her new parents took her home. Almost 21 years later, we connected again. I cannot tell you how many times I've thought of her over the years. I missed her and loved her. So, last night we three girls (and our three men) broke bread. Amazing. And a little surreal...

In November, James and I found our way back to each other. It's been three years since we've met, and we've been through a lot together. Divorce is difficult, and so are the recovering times after. I've learned a lot, done some growing (mentally and spiritually) and found happiness again. I love that man. What a secure and content feeling it is to know that James and I are where we're meant to be.

Today I head down to Kent to spend Christmas Eve with James's cousins (who I very much enjoy). Tomorrow is Christmas at my sister's house. Delicious meals and family at both locations. The one thing missing is my dad, who lives in Florida. But, there are phone calls and emails and we'll send Christmas wishes that way.

I hope this Christmas finds you peaceful, joyful, and thankful for those around you. Hug your friends and family. Buy a stranger a latte and bask in the Christmas cheer.

XO to you and yours.

Tis the Season...

2010-12-08T19:53:00.000-08:00

Decorated a couple of trees recently. This one is so pretty, with white lights, silver ornaments, and homemade white snowflakes.

Then comes this one. A little more Charlie Brownish, but Christmas-y nonetheless!

And a cozy fire to boot!

I love Christmas.

Sunday evening. Sigh. (a good sigh!)

2010-11-28T18:31:00.001-08:00

Right now I should be reading my math curriculum and my Reader's Workshop teacher's manual, but alas... I'm easily distracted. So, instead I blog.

Last Monday the snow kept falling and falling... took an hour and three minutes to get from my school to downtown Bothell = ridiculous. Got the phone call just after 9:00 that school was canceled for Tuesday = pure delight!

Tuesday, after a morning of coffee and the newspaper, was lovely. James and I had prawns and chowder at a little waterfront cafe in Kirkland. Then we walked through downtown Kirkland, stopping in a couple of stores along the way. A quick run into Starbucks for a salted caramel hot chocolate (delish!), and we continued on our walk.

Last stop before heading home was at Brix for a glass of wine. It was there where I received a text from my sister announcing school was canceled for Wednesday as well. Joy! A four-day Thanksgiving weekend had suddenly become a six-day break (days to be made up later.)

The next days were spent reading, watching hockey, going to a movie, watching tv, Thanksgiving with friends, watching college football, visiting at my sister's house, going to church, watching more football and hockey, listening to Christmas music (and singing, too!), and putting up a Christmas tree (not done yet...).

Perfectly perfect.

Tomorrow it's back to work.

Three weeks until Christmas break. Ho-ho-ho...

20 Things That Make Me Smile On A Tuesday

2010-11-19T06:55:00.001-08:00

Snow day! Perfect time to compose a list of happy things :)

1. Holiday coffee cups at Starbucks.

2. A warm kitty on my lap as I cruise the internet.

3. Reality TV. Total guilty pleasure.

4. The feeling that comes with report cards being completed.

5. The students in my class. Really, they are awesome. You should hang out with kids some day...

6. My sister and Red Hook.

7. My little sister - love her already! (Well, I've always loved her...)

8. Old friends from the neighborhood.

9. Parents who are supportive, kind, and appreciative.

10. Football games.

11. Christmas songs.

12. My family.

13. Good books.

14. Office stores.

15. Fires in the fireplace.

16. The chance of snow. LOVE me some snow days.

17. A good meal and a glass of wine.

18. Solid, heartfelt hugs.

19. A kid who says, "I love reading. Sometimes I just can't stop!"

20. James.

Some days...

2010-10-05T06:30:00.000-07:00

It's October 5th. Already. And this weekend it will be the second weekend in October. Already.

Sigh.

I cannot believe how busy I've been over the last five weeks. How overwhelmed.

Teaching a 5/6 split class.

Might not sound like a lot, but umm, it is.

Two maths. Two social studies. Figuring out how to do two sciences.

Combining reading, writing and health. But not doing the same things as last year because I have sixth graders who were in my fifth grade class.

So... new writing prompts, new novel studies. Meeting the needs of all my students.

Cross country, too. Which I totally volunteered for. I love doing XC and track and going to the kids' sporting events. But, it takes time. And planning. And missed lunches.

Staff meetings, department head meetings, IEP meetings, camp meetings, parent meetings.

Getting my credits and clock hours completed and turned in on time. Hopefully I make it.

Feeling pressure from outside sources. Feeling a critical eye from the public. Sometimes feeling the need to defend myself. It's exhausting.

When, really, all I want to do is teach.

I want to teach students how to solve math problems and explain their thinking. I want to encourage students to read and to share my joy of good books with them. I want to conference with students about their writing and celebrate their use of quotation marks and word choice and sentence fluency. I want to teach them how to write lab reports and encourage them to ask questions. I want to motivate and push and listen and support and guide.

My students are great. They're kind, funny, well-behaved, helpful to one another, hard-working.

I've been blessed with a wonderful group of kids this year. I'm excited to see all they can accomplish, all we can do together.

I know I'm good at my job. I love working with ten and eleven year olds. It's a big responsibility, to be the teacher.

So, today I say a little prayer. For some extra energy. For patience. For guidance. For support.

And I head back into the classroom. And enjoy the random stories I'm sure I'll hear soon. And I'll laugh with them, celebrate them, guide them.

I'll teach them.

Crystal Mountain

2010-08-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

I'm sure all you ski buffs out there have been to Crystal....

But have you been there in the summer? On a beautiful Washington day?

No, you say? Well, put it on your list of things to do!

Take the chair lift up (about $20 for adults) and suddenly you're 12 miles from Mt. Rainier.

Chipmunks, flowers, trees, snow...

Quiet.

And this was there, too!

God bless America!

Grown Up Friends

2010-07-19T16:17:00.001-07:00

I was lucky enough to grow up in a great neighborhood. A really great neighborhood.

Pretty much, it was awesome.

Bikes, swimming, kick the can, baseball in the cul-de-sac, bus stops, trails. Good stuff.

This past Saturday I got to see and hang out for a (too short!) time with three old friends.

Cody. Paul. Philip.

My gosh. Pulling up to the old Beach Club and seeing the two guys standing there was crazy! I couldn't believe it.

They looked great. Just like I remembered them. It had been 25 years!!

Then we walked around a couple of blocks (on our way to meet the final friend), pointing out old houses, remembering who lived where, recalling lots of old times.

I missed Cindy, Steve, Darrin, Shannon, the Haverkamps.

I'm sad we don't all live in the same state anymore. We grew up. Sigh.

But, there is nothing like old friends. People from the neighborhood. Those you know who would probably have your back in an instant. And you would have theirs.

Can't wait to see them again.

Skinned Knees

2010-07-18T17:17:00.000-07:00

Ok, not my knee, but the closest I could find.....

Turns out that a scrape like this is RIDICULOUSLY annoying and painful when you're me. Or when you're my age. Or something...

Moral of the story? Don't slide into second base. Even if the game is close. Even if you're tempted. Especially when it's turf and not dirt.

I was safe, though.

Adventures in Biking

2010-07-15T08:07:00.001-07:00

I FINALLY put my bike on my bike rack (which has been on my car since sometime in April), and drove down to Bothell Landing. Yes, I could have ridden from my home to the trail, but whatever.

You have to ride across this bridge that goes over the slough in order to get to the trail. The bridge has a bit of an incline and isn't super wide. I knew I was going to need a running start, so to speak. Umm... there was a lady stopped at the bottom, right in my way. And I couldn't go around her, because someone else was heading toward us.

So, I stopped, thinking, "Lady, you're killing my momentum here. Come on!"

I don't have a little bell to ding (although several people do!), and I wasn't ready to tell her to get out of my way, so I waited. She eventually noticed me (you know, after like 15 seconds) and apologized, then proceeded to move over. Alas, the damage was done and I had to walk my bike to the top of the bridge. There was no way I could start from a stand still and immediately bike up hill. This is the bridge...see the BIG incline??

I got across the bridge and took a left, toward Woodinville, not sure how far I was planning to ride. It's nice riding along the slough and there is some good shade when going under the trees. Kind of like your own little tunnel, or something. However, the city of Bothell really needs to fix these, because they're kind of painful on your rear...

There's one part from Bothell to W'ville where you get off the trail, ride on the street for a bit, then get back on the trail. Turns out I'm not very good at looking behind me while riding when I have to cross a street. No injuries or close calls to report... I'm just not very comfortable doing it.

Back on the trail, rounding a curve, this is what was in front of me (but in yellow):

It was straight across the trail, making a u-turn (like a 7-point u-turn). At first I thought someone was hurt and the car was needed to haul the victim off. But no, the car was apparently out for a lovely drive on the trail. My thought was, "What the ??", which is what other people were saying as I passed them. That's right... I PASSED them. Did ya catch that part??

When I rounded the curve into the park in Woodinville, there were quite a few people out enjoying the afternoon. Frisbee throwing, reading, playing fetch with dogs, chasing toddlers. Even these cute little guys:

I decided to continue on to the valley where the sports fields and Red Hook are. No, not to stop at RH.... just to go that far. Although Red Hook, on the patio, in the sun, with my sister is one of my favorite places to be (when are we going, sissy??). Along the way, I was getting passed by serious bikers, and that's when I realized the new thing in biker world is a bell. I always thought people said, "On your left," when they're going by you. But, the BELL is making a comeback! It's very polite sounding, just a little ding or ka-ching or however you spell that sound. Gotta get me one of these, complete with the saying cuz I'm cool like that:

Made it to Red Hook, and decided to go a bit further.... just a bit. Rounded one more bend, made my own u-turn, and headed back. Seriously, I do not lie, but there was a wind I was riding into once I changed direction. Made my pedaling that much harder!

I headed back toward the park in W'ville. By this time, there were many more people on the trail running, walking, roller-blading, pushing strollers.... My favorite was this sight: two women on bikes, riding slowly, accompanying an older woman (mom?) as she rode this:

The woman was much older than the person in this picture, but you get the idea. It was very sweet, to say the least.

My ride was almost done. A few more curves, a few more bumps (seriously Bothell, what's up with that?), a few more shaded areas, and my trip was complete. Would you believe that when I got to the bridge, there was ANOTHER guy stopped right at the bottom again?! Totally ruined my mojo.

I got back to my car, loaded my bike, and smiled at my ride. Felt good. I found out from my friend that I went 8.5 miles, round trip. Not bad for a start...

So, if you see this car and bike going down the road (picture a black Jeep), it just might be me on my way to a trail...

Not much happening on a Monday night...

2010-07-05T21:37:00.000-07:00

I miss blogging...

I miss writing...

I sit down to write, but I'm not inspired. Nothing comes to mind. Writer's block.

Hmm... random stuff:

1. I'm reading Purpose Driven Life. It's a good book, really gets you to think. I'm guessing it wouldn't be as good or thought-provoking if I was reading it on my own. Luckily, I have a group I'm reading it with. A good group, which makes all the difference.

2. Went to a cool dog park today. Tons of dogs, all breeds. A few of them looked like their owners. One guy was even in the water with his dogs, complete with goggles. The man, not the dogs. Interesting, to say the least.

3. I'm volunteering at a sports camp this week. I don't know the exact details of the camp, but it's hard to go wrong with kids, sports, and the sun. I'm expecting laughter, competitiveness, and some soreness.

4. I'm not sure exactly when, but at some point today I realized The Bachelorette was on tonight and that thought made me smile. Total train wreck of a show, but a total guilty pleasure.

5. I haven't had the world's best ice cream in a while (Ben & Jerry's Chubby Hubby)... probably should get some of that soon.

6. I've had a bike rack on my car for a couple of months, but I haven't used it yet. So, right now I'm just looking like I'm cool biker, but tomorrow I'll actually stick my bike on it and head to the trail.

7. My next dentist appt. is in August... better start flossing again.

8. I was reminded tonight of the importance of forgiveness. Way easier (and healthier) to release that hurt/anger/resentment than to cart it around with you. Forgiveness can be tough, though.

9. One of the best feelings is a pet snuggled up against your legs. I'm thinking of a cat, but a dog works too, I guess.

10. I need a new look for this blog. This one is boring...

That's all I got. Pretty lame, yes. Maybe my creative juices will start flowing and I'll have something more interesting to share.

Feels good to write again, though.

Lessons learned

2010-04-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

Really, I have nothing much to write about today...

I gave the kids an assignment to start making a list in their Writer's Notebooks about life lessons they've learned. Not like how to add numbers or tie their shoes or ride a bike. Not those kind of lessons. But random, abstract things that are important.

Not sure what we're going to do with our lists, but I felt the need. And I'm the teacher. So there.

Now I need to start my list...

1. The smell of coffee in the grocery aisle is delicious
2. A good Jackson 5 song can lighten any mood
3. Flossing really IS important
4. Sometimes a piece of birthday cake and a glass of red wine = a perfect dinner
5. Competition is good - it's not always damaging to the soul
6. A good cry can be refreshing
7. 5th graders are sometimes the best teachers
8. When you exit a public restroom, it's a good idea to check for toilet paper stuck to your shoe
9. Don't take things too seriously all the time; lighten up
10. When applying sun screen, make sure to cover ALL spots. Otherwise you end up with random red spots on your wrist, ankle, knee, etc.
11. God is good
12. A dog park is one of the most fun places to visit
13. Trust your gut
14. Be sure to have at least one pair of jeans that you love

I'm not done. I'll keep adding to the list. Notice, however, that learning to cook is NOT on here. Haven't quite done that yet. Oh well....

Class Pets.... sigh

2010-01-27T15:55:00.000-08:00

I finally caved.

After 10 years, I said yes.

We now have class pets.

Well, actually last year we had two frogs for a couple of months (Ping and Pong), but they were easy.

The kids didn't want to take them out and play with them. Frogs aren't soft and cuddly. They don't run on wheels. Frogs don't sit and wash their faces with their cute little paws.

Mice do.

Salt and Pepper. Two little mice. The students LOVE them. They stay in at recess to play with them. The kids crack up if the mice poop in their hands, which happens all the time.

Then Salt got loose. Loose as in up this little hole in a corner between the cabinets. Loose as in I thought she was a goner, running her little legs off between the walls of our school, which is fairly big. For two hours we were on mouse watch, but no luck.

The bell rang, the kids went home, and I wasn't sure what to do. Then, I saw her little tail. I tracked down another teacher and she told me that the space Salt was in was contained to the corner, it didn't lead anywhere. So the plan formed.

Block off the hole so the mouse couldn't get out. Go to Petsmart to get a little cage and some of those tubes that mice, gerbils and hamsters go in. Put it all together the next morning in the classroom. Arrange the tubes and cage up near the hole in hopes that Salt would come out for food. I really wasn't looking forward to having a death and dying talk with my class.

Would you believe that little bugger came out?! Two students stayed back from music and when the mouse went in the tube, they yanked the tube away from the hole and we had our mouse! The three of us cheered and celebrated and reunited Salt with her sister, Pepper.

So all is well in the world. They are pretty cute.

Lessons Learned

2010-01-08T07:05:00.000-08:00

Two things I've learned this week:

1) The more patience I have in the classroom, the better it is for everyone.

Actually, this isn't a new lesson, but more of a reminder. I have a chatty, social class. They just like to talk. All. The. Time. We've been working on it and making progress since September. I compliment them on their efforts and control. I remind them of how much progress they make when they focus on their writing or math or whatever. They are doing well, but there are a few that repeatedly are the culprits. So I can either get frustrated and pissy about it, or I can relax and address the issue in a calm manner. It's the second method I've been going with this week. The kids respond better, they don't feel like they've done something wrong, I feel better because my blood pressure isn't rising. It's a win-win.

2) Trying something new is risky, but can be enjoyable.

We've been studying variables in science. We've done several experiments where the kids are learning that in science, only ONE variable can be changed at a time in order to have accurate, reliable results. That point has been drilled into their heads and if any one of them were to miss that on a test, I would freak out! Anyway, now they are designing their own experiments. I've never done this before, so there was some trepidation (hope I used that word correctly). Turns out, they are coming up with some cool things. And they're into it and excited and motivated. So, we will be testing which bread gets the most mold, which wheels make the car go the furthest, which maze the mouse can get through the fastest, which bubblegum brand yields the biggest bubbles, which propeller makes the plane go the furthest, which type of book is the most interesting to groups of people, and so on. I'm not sure how it's all going to play out, but it's pretty cool. Of course, they'll write science plans, collect and organize data, report the results, draw conclusions, and present to the class. Because, duh, I'm just that good of a teacher!

Now, go conquer the day!

Random conversation

2010-01-06T16:04:00.000-08:00

Walking back to my classroom from the office, I come across a little kindergarten guy who I see daily at the buses (read: interact with daily concerning some kind of bus line drama).

Me: Hi C.

C: This isn't coffee, it's water (he has a little cartoon dixie cup)

Me: It's not coffee?

C: No, it's water, see? (showing me the inside of the cup)

Me: Good to know. Thanks for clearing that up for me.

Those are the kinds of moments that make me smile during the day.

Bring on the year. I'm ready!

2010-01-04T06:23:00.001-08:00

The new year.

I like it.

As I have my coffee on Monday morning, January 4th, my mind is filled with thoughts about ...... well, me.

I wish I were an insightful writer, the kind who always has the perfect thing to say. The writer who can dispense words that touch people. The writer who clearly communicates her thoughts, observations, opinions, etc.

But, I'll take what I have. And be happy with it. And strive to get better.

And that is my basic motto for 2010.

I've had some disappointments in my life, mostly regarding relationships. A failed, horrible marriage. Struggles with my dad. Losses of those close to me. Things that undoubtedly others have experienced as well, I get that. But like I said, I'm thinking about me this morning.

So, I'm making this my year. A post on a blog I read asked if we would be willing to give God a year. With that question directed at me, I guess I should clarify and say I'm making this my year and God's.

Floss regularly. Wear my night guard thingy. Take vitamins. Do weight-bearing excercises. Improve my cardio-vascular system. Stretch.

Develop my writing program in school. Push my students even further. Impress upon them the importance of being a good human. Continue to enjoy them, to laugh with them, to be thankful for my job.

Read my bible. Continue to make connections at church. Nurture the relationships that are growing. Take a risk and lead a group.

Embrace myself. Value the wonderful person I am. Recognize the goodness I have to offer. Make choices that are healthy (in all aspects) for myself.

Be thankful that I have a God who loves me, accepts me, has purpose for me, protects me, encourages me, and is there. Always.

So, there it is. A lot to take on? Perhaps. I'll be forty in a couple of months. I've had a long, trying decade of thirties. I'm kind of tired of the bull&$*t. I'm ready to enjoy 2010 and I'm excited to see what the year brings, what God has in store for me. I'm ready to be the person I'm meant to be.

And. I. Can't. Wait.

Snow Days (or lack thereof)

2009-12-07T19:57:00.000-08:00

It's freezing today.

Supposed to get colder tomorrow. REALLY cold.

Can't feel your toes cold.

Pretend you're smoking at the bus stop cold.

Freeze your nose hairs cold.

But.... no snow.

I'm feeling a little ripped off.

I very much want to wake up, turn on the news, and see that my school is closed.

Is that too much to ask??

So not fair.

Friday night event...

2009-11-21T07:53:00.000-08:00

Last night I got baptized.

Even though I was baptized as a baby, I made this decision for myself.

An outward declaration of my inside beliefs.

I love my church.

Holy Cow!

2009-11-15T18:29:00.000-08:00

Seriously. It's been a long time, and I've missed writing. Too much lesson planning, too many meetings, to many book clubs, too busy. Broken record; we're all there.

So, it's time for me to make time for writing. I like it. It's therapeutic. And who knows? I might have something to say that will be helpful to someone else.

If you've ever been curious or thinking about going to church, here's one for you:
http://www.eastlakecc.com/

This is the current series......

How are you marked to make a difference?

If you are looking for a come as you are, no pressure, church for the rest of us, kind of place, this may be it. Today, the lead singer was on an introduction video to the series and wondered, ".... do you have the balls to get baptized?"

I'm thinking not many churches pose the question in that fashion :)

It could happen to anyone.....

2009-08-19T08:51:00.001-07:00

I'm reading this book called The Hour I First Believed. It's about a couple whose lives were affected by the Columbine shootings. The wife was in the library and hid inside a small cabinet for hours. She heard all of the shooting, the screaming and pleading of the students, the laughter and taunting of the two with guns. She suffers from PTSD, understandably. The husband was a teacher at the school, but was out of town dealing with a family emergency on that day. The book is fiction, but the author, Wally Lamb, did much research.

The couple moves back home to Connecticut to try and escape Colorado and the trauma that occurred. The wife becomes addicted to prescription medication and ends up in prison as the result of an accident. Their lives continue to change during her prison sentence. I'm not finished with the book, but felt the need to write.

What stands out to me is the fact that this was an ordinary couple. The wife was a nurse and the husband was a high school teacher. Regular, everyday type people. Now they are in this horrible situation; he's working multiple jobs to keep the house and farm that has been in his family for years, he's dealing with astronomical legal fees and facing a possible civil suit, he's struggling to visit his wife in prison. She is changing, becoming accustomed to prison life and all the norms that occur in those walls. They both are increasingly angry.

A regular couple, normal people. Like me. They never expected to be in this situation in life, but who does? Caelum and Maureen (the couple) are good people, each with life experiences that have created who they are today and who are striving for happiness and are content with their place in this world. Like you and me. Then one awful thing happens (which landed her in prison), and their lives are totally upended. It's just a reality check. People make mistakes. Doesn't make them bad, it just is.

Smile. Hug those who are important to you. Experience joy in the simple things. Be thankful for the goodness in your life. You never know what's in store.

Middle of the Night Guests.

2009-07-23T13:46:00.000-07:00

At first it's kind of startling, jolting me awake at 2:30 in the morning. Then I realize what the screaming is..... coyotes.

I've heard them several times before. There is a big wooded area across from my condo, and I'm guessing that's where they are. Sometimes it's just one or two. Last night, there were several.

Once I'm awake, I like listening to them. One starts the howl, then others join in. Last night it even sounded like there was a baby. The howling gets louder and louder, then abruptly stops.

I'd like to think they are just calling to each other, gathering everyone together before they head back to their den. Then the thought crosses my mind that they might be sending out the dinner call because they've found something. I get a little sad and am glad my cats are inside at night.

I go back to my more pleasant thought that they are all just rounding one another up.

Hopefully the coyotes won't lose their habitat with so much building going on.

They are pretty cool to hear.

Claudia

2009-06-15T19:55:00.000-07:00

Dear Claudia,

I only got to know you a fraction of the amount my sister did. Sad for me.

You are one cool girl. The amount of friends you have, the people you touch, the smiles you give, and the joy you experienced .......... Wow.

Know that you touched many, many people in your life and those who you did are blessed and lucky to have known you.

Cheers to you.

A little slice of heaven....

2009-05-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Great weekend.

Really hard to beat sunny days here.

A friend's garage sale, wine tasting, a birthday party.

A new dog (sister's), softball, celebratory beers after.

Delicious grilled kabobs, scallops, corn on the cob.

Pure bliss.

Sigh..........

A Rite of Passage

2009-05-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

It's happened. I never thought it would, but it did. How many times have I read articles or columns about exercising and working out and it says to contact a physician before starting an excercise program? And I always thought, "Oh, please. I'm sure."

Ummm..... I hired a trainer. Dude, I am out of shape.

Out. Of. Shape.

Sore lower back from sit-ups or reverse crunches, or whatever. Sore triceps and shoulders (traps?) from a variety of arm raises and pushes and lat pull-downs. Sore shins, for cripes' sake.

Muscles I didn't know I had are sore. Embarrassing and disappointing. That's what happens when I only rely on physical activity to stay loose and flexible. Now I have to work at it.

Being 39 sucks.

I'll get there.....by summer I'll be smokin'! Or at least that's what Jenny says (PT). But I pay her to say that.......

*Note: The picture above? Not me yet, but soon :)

Ah-ha moment

2009-03-30T16:27:00.000-07:00

I've been sick since Friday (today is Monday). It's been going around my friends, co-workers and students for awhile, and I thought I had effectively dodged it. But, alas, I started feeling cruddy on Friday...

I spent the weekend either on the couch or in bed. Doing nothing, but sleeping and watching tv. I didn't even have enough energy to read, and I LOVE to read. My mom came over and made me some eggs. James came over and made me some chicken soup.

I got up and went to work this morning, thinking that A) I'll just make it through the day, and B) it's a total pain to write sub plans.

As soon as the kids came in, I regretted my decision. WAY too much energy needed to talk to 5th graders all day. We called a sub, I wrote some plans, she showed up, I was on my couch by 11:00.

But here's what I was thinking: How do these women do it when they have kids? Especially little kids that aren't independent and can fend for themselves?

My first thought? Well, I guess I'd call my mom.
Second thought? Oh. Duh. I guess you'd ask your husband to help. Or (big lightbulb), he would volunteer to help.

When I was married, that scenario would never happen. Never. Not only would it not happen, but I wouldn't even ask, because it would so not be worth the hassle and frustration. It wouldn't even occur to me.

Sad.

It's those kinds of things that creep up when I least expect it. Like, "Hmm. I thought I was pretty much over that crap, but there it is again...."

Ahhh, growth is a beautiful thing.
Embrace life.

Awesome Surprise!

2009-03-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

The best gift ever....... Heading out to my car this morning to start it and scrape the windows, only to find that.....

THEY'D ALREADY BEEN SCRAPED!!

I've been smiling since then and am sure to have a great day!

Thank you, James!!

Happiness is...

2009-03-04T06:31:00.000-08:00

Going over the state standards (again) for 5th graders in math and confirming that we are perfectly on track!

By the end of June, the 27 kids in my class will have those standards down pat.

Yay us!

Reserved Space

2009-03-01T20:31:00.000-08:00

This space is officially reserved for Bruce and Phil.

I have no doubt, that soon they will do something so incredible, so momentous, so awe-inspiring, that I will definitely have to blog about it!

I can't wait!

P.S. The picture is not the real Bruce and Phil.... just two random guys I found when I googled their names.... :)

Useless info...

2009-02-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

Friday night, tired, ready for bed.

Joined a new group, "I'm thankful for...", which makes you think about life and what it has to offer. Me? I'm thankful for my family. My friends. My job. That's what everyone says. How about a different kind of list?

Early mornings with coffee.
The sun on my way into work.
Jackson Five.
When my hair turns out perfectly after I dry it.
A huge laugh, when you crack yourself up.
My nephew doing Napolean Dyanmite.
Hanging out in the school office, before school starts.
Reuniting with old friends.
Saturday mornings.
The crack of the bat, especially when I hit it.
Babies.
A really good book, one that you can't put down.
Hard rain pounding on your roof.
The perfect pair of jeans.
Memories of my brother.
A bit of a sunburn, even though it's not good for you.
Wine.
Cranking the radio, singing, with the window down.
The Gorge, Sasquatch last year.
Hula-hooping with 10 year olds in my classroom.
The most perfect taste of chocolate you ever had - little balls of heaven.
The things that come out of 5th graders' mouths.
Starbucks and their salted hot chocolate.
Freedom.
Many more, don't get me wrong, they're there!

Make everything count. Hug the ones you love.

Addicted

2009-02-20T09:52:00.001-08:00

Hi. My name is Suzi, and I'm a reality TV addict.

It all started with The Real World. Not the first one, but the one with Pedro (the AIDS activist) and Puck (the disgusting booger-picking, snot-blower).

Then Survivor. Love that show. Still. Colby, Elizabeth, Ethan, Rupert, the skinny PE teacher, the challenges. I even applied to be on that show.

Amazing Race - totally into! I want to be on it! I cry sometimes, at the end, when the teams are eliminated. And some of the things they do are a riot! Remember Mirna and Sharla - hilarious. And my favorite couple was John and Kris. They were athletic, supportive of each other, kind, and appreciated all the places they went and the people they encountered.

Project Runway, The Bachelor, Big Brother..... I've seen 'em. And sadly, have watched them all.

American Idol..... love that one too. Although, I've been told AI is not really a reality show, but still... this year, my early favorites are Danny (whose wife died) and Jackie (kind of a goofy, spirited gal who wore atrocious spandex pant things this week!).

I don't watch ALL shows (never been into Top Chef, for instance).

Oh yeah, I've even checked out Biggest Loser.

Anyway, happy watching!

Thought for the day....

2009-02-18T09:41:00.001-08:00

You know, life is a challenge.
Trust your gut.
Believe your instincts.
It will be ok.

Going forward.

2009-02-13T21:06:00.000-08:00

Two years ago, on this exact Friday night before mid-winter break started, I was married and wanting to get pregnant. On this night, I got the final shot and was ready to try for a baby over the weekend.

Wow. What a different place I am in, two years later.

My marriage was not good. I was so not happy. Being in a loveless marriage is not something I would wish on anyone. I was broken down and I lost who I was. The joy in my life was minimal.

And the ending of my marriage and the whole divorce process was difficult as well.

That was two years ago.

Today, I'm sitting on my couch, with my feet up on the coffee table, and a glass of red wine within reach. I'm in my own condo, which I bought last March.

My family is close by, and I talk with them daily. I don't know what I would do without them. I have friends who I love to spend time with, and wish I saw more often. They mean the world to me.

I work in a great school, one with a community that I am glad to be a part of. I love my students and classroom. I'm grateful that I get to spend my days in a job I am proud of and with students who challenge me to grow.

I'm a regular attender (soon to be member) of an awesome church. I volunteer on Sundays in one of the baby rooms. I've met many people through growth groups, and I look forward to going each week. The pastor is easy to relate to, and he delivers the message in such a way that you can readily apply it to your life.

I'm laughing, singing, hanging out with friends, reading, finding new passions in life, trying new restaurants, going to listen to music, and confiding more in my family.

I'm not completely over the hurt and scarring of that marriage, but I am making serious progress. I'm amazed that it's been two years, because often it seems like yesterday. But....

It's good to get ME back.

Life is good.

Clean water

2009-02-10T19:47:00.000-08:00

300 voices.

Become one of them. I just did.

My friend, Lisa, introduced me to this cause.

Check it out and then join.

Plus, you get this way cool bag........

Athlete or Role Model?

2009-02-08T06:52:00.001-08:00

Michael Phelps and the pot. A-Rod and the steroids.

Trying to figure out how I feel about that.

Michael Phelps - stupid decision. The guy is a world famous athlete. The total image of the Olympics. Super human, incredible. Has a devoted mother. Obviously a choice to smoke pot at a party might have some bad repercussions. Someone snapped a picture. And then sold it......

So he apologizes. I believe he's sincere.

And he starts losing his endorsements.

So, here's the dilemma....... is he just a regular college aged kid out at a party? Anyone else wouldn't have the same fall-out if he was in a picture with a bong. Should he be excused and chalk it up to regular old life and the things people do when they're young?

Or is he different from everyone else? Kids and Americans look up to him. Does that mean that his choice is so much worse than anyone else's?

I don't know......

A-Rod - I'm sick of these athletes taking steroids. I can imagine they have pressure from their trainers or friends or agents or whoever to beef up, get stronger, perform better, make more money. But, come on!

Try as I might, I can't figure out why athletes make SO MUCH money. And Alex is the highest paid baseball player. Something like $275 million over a 10-year period. I can't even fathom that amount.

Taking steroids makes the athletes appear as liars. Do they really need to bulk up that much more? How do they convince themselves that it's ok?

So, are athletes who are in the limelight have a responsibility to be role models? To be the kind of people that kids look up to? It's hard talking to 5th graders about the headlines of their favorite athletes. I'm surprised no one has mentioned Michael Phelps in my room yet.....

Or is it like Charles Barkley once quoted, "I'm not a role model... Just because I dunk a basketball doesn't mean I should raise your kids."

So, I wonder....

Nothing much.....

2009-02-06T07:22:00.000-08:00

Ok, this is totally lame........ but I'm sitting on my couch and happened to glance over at my chair. Stretched out on either arm are both of my cats. For some reason, it's comforting. Don't know why.

Maybe it's because everywhere I look, people are getting laid off. Everywhere. And my cats, comfortably sleeping on my chair are a reminder that I'm doing ok.

I am thankful and grateful.

P.S. These pictures are old, but all I could get right now.....

An oldie but a goodie!

2009-01-29T15:49:00.000-08:00

I was just reminded of a very funny video....

The Evolution of Dance.

If you haven't seen it, or want to again, go to youtube and search for it.

You won't be disappointed!

Be the Change!

2009-01-27T16:32:00.000-08:00

Last week I showed my class the Ashton & Demi video asking Americans, "What's your pledge?" We watched it a couple of times and then watched it again today. We talked about what kinds of things we could pledge. What things could we do in our own little part of the country to make America better? Here are some of their pledges:

I pledge to....
..... plant another tree in our back yard.
..... help our community more and not get angry.
..... convince my dad to buy a trailer so that when we travel we don't use so much gas.
..... walk somewhere instead of asking my mom to drive me.
..... turn off lights in rooms I'm not in and not use so much water.
..... give my old stuff and clothes to tent city so that they can be warm.
..... be more patient with my little brother.
..... smile more.
..... take shorter showers.
..... recycle more of my papers.
..... stop littering.
..... be a good friend.
..... say hi.
..... take responsibility in my actions.
..... respect my parents by not talking back.
..... donate and give to Children's Hospital.
..... tell people about food waste going in the yard waste bin.
..... not use as many plastic bottles.

So, we in room C-204 challenge you.....
What is YOUR pledge?!

Copy Cat

2009-01-25T17:14:00.000-08:00

I love my friend, Lisa!
I noticed she changed her blog layout.
So I decided I wanted to, too!
Blogging is as bad as Facebook. Meaning, I've just messed around here for a good 45 minutes.
I have papers to grade, lesson planning to be done, bills to pay.
But, I gotta be like Lisa!

What's your pledge??

2009-01-24T07:31:00.000-08:00

I showed this video to my 5th graders yesterday. We watched it twice. I got the chills and the kids recognized all kinds of celebrities......

Watch. Hopefully this link works....

My class will be making our own individual pledges on Monday. Care to join us?

http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-us&from=MSNHP

Oh - once you get to the website, click on the video of Ashton and Demi!

Feeling the itch!

2009-01-23T09:29:00.001-08:00

Every so often I start thinking about cutting my hair. Not drastically, but still cutting it. Well, the time has come again.
Got to work this morning, called Gene Juarez, and Harlow is available today at 5:00.
What are the chances of my regular person being open on such short notice? Meant to be, I guess!
Until later......

On the eve of ........

2009-01-19T06:49:00.001-08:00

Something big is going to happen tomorrow. The new president......

I'm not sure how I'm feeling - a mixture of things. It's exciting.

I'll be glued to the TV - thankfully I have one in my classroom.

I wish I could impress upon my students the fact that they are in the middle of history in the making.

5th grade

2009-01-14T17:30:00.001-08:00

February is Black History Month. Every year, my 5th graders do a biography report on a well-known African-American and we put the finished products up on the wall in the library for all to see. They usually turn out pretty cool and the kids like completing the project.

The hard part is choosing their person. I'm pretty flexible with their choices, but I do guide them to choose someone who's made a contribution to society and someone who will be easy to research.

Student: Can I do Shel Silverstein?
Me: Umm, he's white.

Student: Are you sure?

Me: Pretty sure.....

Student: I want to do Ichiro.

Me: Ichiro? He's not black.

Student: Ohhhh.....

So I told Steve, my teaching partner, about these conversations. Steve is Asian, Chinese, to be exact. Here's what Steve said, "Do you think they think I'm black??!?

We cracked up! For a long time. Over and over.

Man, I love the things that come out of kids' mouths!

Car trouble

2009-01-10T15:35:00.000-08:00

On Sunday night I slid on some snow and ice, slammed into a curb, and messed up the suspension on the right side of my car. Total pain dealing with the insurance company, the body shop, and then the rental car place. But, this morning I got my rental.....

Rental:

My car:

Totally love my car and miss it, but the Saturn Vue is fun. And clean. And newer.....

But not paid for! :)

Your kids have gotta have 'em!

2009-01-10T09:14:00.000-08:00

Check these shoes out....

Major icky.

2009-01-05T18:08:00.000-08:00

Seriously gross. I get home tonight, walk in, set my bag down, put my keys on the hook and walk over to feed the cats. As I turn around, the first thing out of my mouth is,
"You have got to be kidding me!"
But no, not kidding. On about four bills that I had on the counter waiting to be paid tonight, was a lovely pile of cat vomit, complete with fur ball.
That is disgusting. I couldn't believe it! Ick. Just thought I'd share.....

Happiness is.....

2008-12-30T05:36:00.001-08:00

......being invited to your student's New Year's party.

Not only receiving the evite, but also a separate email from her asking me to come.

Very fun and cute.

Cheers!

Ahhh.......

2008-12-24T06:30:00.000-08:00

All the presents are bought (except for one last trip to Target.......)

The wrapping is still needing to be done.

The plans are set for dinner tonight.

I've been up since 5:00ish.

It's snowing again.

I'll see my family later in the day.

Right now, I'm cozy at home with coffee and toast.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

Reunions.

2008-12-23T06:24:00.000-08:00

Something must be in the water. I know that I just had my 20 year high school reunion this past summer, so of course I'm going to be reconnected with old friends. But lately I've been in touch with friends who weren't even at my reunion, who didn't even graduate with me. Hmmm....

Cindy: old friend from way back when, kindergarten probably.

Carla: 7th grade locker partner, developed into one of my best friends in high school.

Shannon: lived up the street from me for a couple of years, starting in 5th grade. Now lives in Alabama and found me on Facebook.

Marlene: used to play softball together about 15 years ago, lost touch, ran into her at JCPenney last night, and now she lives about 15 minutes away.

Crazy! Just another reminder of things to be thankful for and the blessings in my life.

I love old friends!

Reflection

2008-12-19T06:37:00.000-08:00

So, I'm sitting here in my comfy chair with a cup of coffee. I have a cat sleeping on each arm of the chair. My Christmas tree is lit. The heat is on. It's beautiful outside, with the snow covering the deck and the branches of the tree.

My dad is upstairs sleeping. He's been here for about four weeks now, spending time with my sister and me, while continuing to recover from his stroke. I like having him here and it will be difficult when he goes home to Florida in a couple of weeks.

Last night I had dinner at my sister's. Harry made a delicious dinner and my step-sister and her family were over. They shared all kinds of stories about their recent travels and it was nice just to be all around each other. Including my mom and dad.

I have friends coming over tonight for a little holiday gathering. There will be food and drink and laughter and games. Fun.

I have a job I truly enjoy, even though it's challenging and difficult at times. I work with great people, have made wonderful friends, and get the chance to make a difference in kids' lives.

I've been going to church for about three months. I volunteer on Sundays in the baby room. I've met people through growth groups. I attend with my sister, her family, and my friend.

I recently got back in touch with a childhood friend and visited her and her family in Texas. I had a great time and am so thrilled to have visited her.

Christmas is in a week. I love Christmas.

I need to be thankful and appreciative for the blessings in my life. I'm rich in blessings. I would love to have a family of my own. A husband who loves me and who I love in return. A child and a home. I need to trust God that this will come in time, that that want and desire will be filled.

Cherish what I have now. Be thankful. Count my blessings, because there are many.

Merry Christmas.

Happy Children

2008-12-18T05:58:00.001-08:00

It's just before 6:00 a.m. on Thursday. Yesterday the schools were cancelled, due to snow.

Funny thing is, there was no snow here. At all. Nothing.

It started snowining at about 4:30 yesterday afternoon.

I can only imagine the dilemma the schools are in. Cancel school and face the wrath if the snow doesn't show up. Keep schools open and face the complaints for asking kids to come to school when the weather forecast is for a ton of snow to fall.

Darned if you do, darned if you don't.

Today is a snow day again. With snow!

I hope all the kids in my room have a great time today throwing snowballs, building snowmen, and making snow angels. Especially Marina, who saw snow for the first time last Saturday.

Hopefully school will be in session tomorrow. I'd like to see my kids again before Christmas!

Happy playing!

Thought for the day....

2008-12-12T09:33:00.000-08:00

Breathe.

2008-12-10T19:00:00.000-08:00

Ever have one of those weeks when you can't catch your breath? Duh. Everyone does.

Monday: meeting after school (two actually - I had to choose)

Tuesday: meeting with teacher before school, student council at lunch and meeting after school

Wednesday: writing meeting after school

Thursday: staff meeting before school, student council at lunch, parent meeting after school

Daily: lesson planning and work to correct and after school bus duty and 27 5th graders

I'm tired. I've got a demanding class this year. I love 'em, but I'm tired.

It's a good thing there are evenings with a glass of wine. And a book to read. And chocolate.

Tomorrow is another day. Get ready to take on life!

Shh..... don't tell!

2008-12-09T21:11:00.001-08:00

I just copied this picture off of another person's blog.....

Is that so bad?

I really, really like this picture and wanted it on mine too!

Merry Christmas!

Goal accomplished!

2008-12-09T20:50:00.000-08:00

Finally!!!!

Joined the Y on Saturday and went to a class tonight with Mindy. Felt good to exercise and get my blood moving.

If you don't have a workout partner to go with, get one. For me, having someone else to meet makes me go. It's not as easy to talk myself out of it!

Now the next thing is to add weights!

Or else!

2008-12-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

All I'm saying is that by this time tomorrow, I better be a member of the Y. I'm dragging Mindy with me to make sure I sign up. Enough already. Get off my butt and MOVE!!

Love Languages

2008-12-03T22:18:00.000-08:00

I joined this book group to read The Five Love Languages for Singles. The five languages are words of affirmation, quality time, acts of service, physical touch and gifts. At the end of the book there is a questionaire that will tell you your primary love language.

My top three scores were words of affirmation, quality time, and physical touch.

I figured words of affirmation and quality time would be the highest, and gifts would be on the low end.

Well. It turns out that gifts from my students make me feel loved.

I'm not sure why, but this year I've been blessed with kind hearted students. I've received bookmarks (both bought and handmade), candy, cookies, watercolored note cards, a Build-A-Bear (so cute!), an apple, chocolate from Canada, pictures drawn, a dish, and today a student gave me a Starbucks mug, biscotti, tea and peppermint hot cocoa.

I am blessed and my heart is warm. Don't know what I've done to deserve it, but receiving an unexpected gift, of any kind, is quite nice. Especially when it's from a child.

Long time...

2008-12-02T20:12:00.000-08:00

Wow. It's been a long time since I've posted anything. Before report cards, conferences, and Thanksgiving. Hmmm...... that was a busy, busy time for me.

December 2nd. Hard to believe it's December already. Here are my thoughts:

1) Huge relief that conferences are over. That time of year is so busy and energy draining. It's nice to meet with each family, but it takes a lot out of me.

2) I think I'm getting my Christmas tree on Saturday. Last year I didn't decorate at all. This year I'm ready.

3) I paid off my VISA, which is good.

4) I'm liking having my dad back in town. He needs to move back to Washington state.

5) Science went MUCH better today. Much better.

6) Yesterday I saw my first Christmas tree of the season, on the top of a car. I love seeing that!

7) My friend is off on a mission trip to Africa. She leaves tomorrow morning. Prayers and thoughts are sent her way.

8) I'm going to the Seahawk game on Sunday. Hopefully they'll win, but it will be fun either way.

9) Tomorrow is already Wednesday. Three more work days until the weekend.

10) I love my friends.

11) I love my family.

12) Thanksgiving is over. I can officially play Christmas music!

State of mind.

2008-11-14T07:01:00.000-08:00

Nothing really profound to say, except what I'm feeling/thinking:

Life is hard. There are so many curveballs thrown our direction, it's overwhelming at times.

Hug your family and friends.

Spend time with those you love and who love you.

Laugh.

Snuggle with your pet.

Believe in yourself and who you are.

Remember this: Life. Is. Good.

?????

2008-11-11T05:10:00.000-08:00

What does one do when she can't sleep? It drives me crazy. Vacation day today. You'd think I'd be able to sleep in.

But no. I've been awake since........ all night, really. Tossing and turning.

Too much running through my brain, I guess. But really, all I want to do is catch a few more hours of zzzzzz.

Well, at least the coffee is ready now. I think a nap may be in my future today.....

Friends

2008-11-08T21:30:00.000-08:00

I could not imagine life without friends. Those you can laugh with, cry with, talk with....... friends who listen to you and those who you lend an ear to...... friends who give much needed hugs...... friends with little two year olds who CRACK you up........ friends who don't mind if you sing along (loudly) to a song on the radio....... friends who you can look your worse in front of....... friends who love you and support you and who you love in return.......

Veteran's Day

2008-11-07T20:02:00.000-08:00

I realize I'm a few days early, but still.....

Today we had our Veteran's Day assembly at school. Our music teacher is awesome. Seriously. She leads a choir of 4th-6th graders and does such an excellent job. It's impressive. Today the kids sang three songs with multiple parts. Just seeing them in their red, white, and blue t-shirts and listening to their sweet, pure voices brought tears to my eyes and made my hair stand on end. It truly was beautiful.

Then about six students went to the mike and shared their thanks and appreciation for the men and women of our country who serve or have served in the military. Again, I was moved.

If you haven't been to an elementary school and heard children sing and speak, you are definitely missing out on one of life's treasures.

How blessed am I to have heard them.

Small things

2008-11-06T16:00:00.000-08:00

Ok, here's a very, very simple pleasure.....

Starbucks has their holiday cups out. Red with little white snowflakes, deer and trees.

Very cozy. I love 'em. And yes, it did make me smile this morning!

Soon I get to play Christmas music.......

Democracy

2008-11-03T20:01:00.000-08:00

Today was election day.

Student Council election day at my school. There were twenty-three 4th -6th graders running for five different positions. Twenty-three speeches to listen to. And ya know what? They did pretty good. Very good, as a matter of fact. Each candidate calmly walked up to the microphone, slowly and clearly (mostly!) gave their speech, and returned to their seat amidst a bit of applause.

The audience was perfect. Extremely quiet and polite. No whooping and hollaring. Patiently waiting while the speech giver found the right words to say. Enthusiastically clapped at the end.

Now, I have to tally the votes. I brought them home with me to do tonight - imagine the level of trust that exists to allow me to take home the votes in such a big time election! Tomorrow the results will be announced. I can't help but feel bad for those who don't win...... I kind of don't want to look at the ballots.

Whatever the results, I'm proud of them.

Trick or Treat!

2008-10-30T15:57:00.000-07:00

Ok, 5th graders the day before Halloween? CRAZY!

5th graders tomorrow, the day of Halloween? I don't even want to think about it.

Seriously. If you don't believe me, stop by any time tomorrow, but especially between 2:15 and 3:15. I dare you.

Motivation

2008-10-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

I'm working on a little personal journey, trying to get healthy, if you will. I've bought three different books over the last year dealing with divorce and healing. I've done a lot of journal writing (word processing, but still writing). I take a multi-vitamin every night. I've joined a book group with other singles trying to figure stuff out. I even volunteer on Sunday mornings in a baby room to get my baby fix. Oh, and I enjoy a good glass of wine while chatting with friends and my sister.

Dude. I have got to exercise. I don't know how long I've been mulling over the idea of joining the Y, but I haven't yet done it. There's no real reason, but I seem to easily come up with several "excuses" why I haven't dragged my butt in there. Here are the reasons why I should join: It's going to make me sleep better, become more flexible, increase my strength and lung capacity, good for my bones (since I have osteopenia, which is pre-osteoperosis), and it will MAKE MY JEANS FIT BETTER!!

So, I just have to suck up the added expense and sign up. Saturday is November 1st. The day after payday. Sounds like the perfect time. Wish me luck.....

Waiting.

2008-10-25T10:12:00.000-07:00

So, it's waayyy too early, but believe it or not, I'm kind of already thinking about Christmas. Last year I didn't decorate at all. Just wasn't in the mood for it. This year..... I'm going to. I even was thinking about it last night, wondering when it would socially be ok to get Christmas things out without being ridiculous. After Thanksgiving, is what I came up with. Until then......

2008-10-22T21:37:00.000-07:00

Do you ever stop and just listen? I think I do, and then there are times when I know I'm really listening. You learn things. Shock of all shocks, coming from a teacher. But I'm not talking about listening to instructions or directions or how to solve a math problem. I mean listening to someone talk about life. It can be powerful. Listening and then thinking about your own experiences can bring new awarenesses (is that a word??) to you. Even by surprise, sometimes. Even when you're not sure you're really going to benefit, it sneaks up on you. You realize something new, something that makes you go, "Hmm."

Bring on the Rain!

2008-10-20T21:26:00.000-07:00

Totally weird weather today. Misting, raining, not raining, drizzle, hard rain, hail, pouring down buckets, thunder, lightning......

Actually, I liked it. Ever have one of those days when you're just completely in the mood for a pouring down, soggy, dark sky day? Today was one of those days for me. Except, I thought for a brief moment that the brown polish was coming off of my boots.... Otherwise, the rain was perfect. I was in a math meeting after work today and I couldn't believe how LOUD the rain was! It was pounding on the roof, with thunder to boot. I was truly thankful it wasn't during school hours...... trying to control 29 5th graders during that weather would have been nearly impossible. Any crazy weather of any kind pretty much puts an end to the current lesson.

We shall see what tomorrow brings and what Mother Nature has in store for us. Maybe the power will go out and the screaming will commence..... stay tuned!

Thought for the day -

2008-10-18T20:24:00.001-07:00

You know you're getting old when it's 8:15 on a Saturday night and you're sitting on the couch, thinking about how good your bed would feel right about now..... I'm just saying....

So good....

2008-10-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I've had Little Caesars pizza. Tonight we had a pepperoni pizza and a cheese pizza for a grand total of $10.95! It was so good!! I still remember those commercials with that little caveman guy saying, "Pizza, pizza!" Plus, the love of my 15 year old self worked there. My sister and her boyfriend (now husband) came home all those years ago and told me that Trent was employee of the month, with his picture on the wall. Which, of course, made me feel so proud of him! Sigh.

All those memories are coming back to me, just from enjoying a slice of pizza from my high school days. Pizza, pizza!

Unbelievable.

2008-10-15T06:53:00.000-07:00

In the Seattle Times this morning: more news about the 14 year old girl who was starved in Carnation, a mother in Florida charged with the murder of her three year old daughter, a mother in Yakima sentenced for murdering her 25 month old son.

What is wrong with these people??!!? Seriously. I do not have the words to accurately convey my feelings. My stomach is sick and my eyes are tearful.

Danny

2008-10-14T21:53:00.000-07:00

I got a call from my brother-in-law today, asking if I had talked to Cindy (my sister). When I said no, his reply was, "Oh." I immediately figured something was wrong or something had happened to my dad (recent health issue). Turns out, my nephew was taken to the hospital because of appendicitis. In the grand scheme of things, not that serious or life-threatening. Everyone knows someone who's had their appendix taken out, including me. But, still. This is the third health problem (stroke, heart attack, appendix) in a month for my family, and it's getting old.

Anyway, everything is fine, he's good, but it's another opportunity to think about Danny and what a good kid he is and how important he is to our family. It's late and I'm tired, but I just wanted to get this down now.

Love you, Dan.

Sleep

2008-10-12T06:21:00.000-07:00

Most mornings during the week, I would LOVE to stay in bed longer. By Thursday and Friday, I'm telling myself, "Two more early wake-ups before the weekend!" Umm...... I woke up this morning at 5:50 am and after 30 minutes of trying to go back to sleep, I finally bit the bullet and got up. What up with that??!? Whatever the case, it's annoying.

2008-10-11T11:29:00.001-07:00

I started reading this book, Mrs. Perfect. I was at the library and was looking for a fluff book, one I didn't really have to think about, that I could read for a few minutes before falling asleep at night. I couldn't relate to the character (Taylor) at all; she and her husband were crazy rich, they had three blond, model girls, they lived in a mult-million dollar house, spent thousands of money on everything, etc. I didn't really like her, but kept reading anyway. Then, the bottom fell out from underneath them. Taylor had to reevaluate everything, and I learned more about her and her background as she moved forward. Anyway, I came across this quote, and I read it a few times:

I am someone. A flawed someone. But flawed or not, I matter. I matter to a lot of people. Even more important, I matter to me.

I like that quote. It's a good one.

Values...

2008-10-10T15:01:00.000-07:00

Our district had a non-student day today, with the teachers going to grade level math meetings this morning. I sat by and talked with a teacher from another school. In addition to finding out that he and his wife graduated from BHS (he in '86, she in '88), he reminded me of something..... The state and district will always be pushing new standards and curricula onto our already full plates, which has the potential of causing much stress and burnout. In light of everything, the most important thing is my connection with kids, the energy that I bring to the lessons, the environment that is provided and maintained in the classroom, and me striving to make sure that each kid knows I believe in him/her. Whatever the standards are, I can teach them. It's that extra part, motivating and encouraging the kids in my class, that is most important. That's where the joy comes from.

I already knew and believed this, but it's nice to be reminded of it once in a while.

Gooooaaaalll!

2008-10-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

A year ago at this time, I had watched maybe a couple of hockey games on tv and had gone to one Thunderbirds game. Today I got home a bit later than I had hoped, but I was able to watch about a period and a half of the Detroit Red Wings game. AND I know some of the players' names! I had even checked the tv listings to see what games were on this week, and I was surprised when none were played on Tuesday. If I'm remembering correctly, the VS channel shows hockey on Tuesday nights. Hmm...... I'll have to check into that. Hockey is pretty cool to watch, even better on hi-def, and the best yet when it's live.

Oh my gosh! I just remembered Hockey Night in Canada! I wonder if that starts this weekend?? But, alas, I think the long-standing theme song has been retired. Rats. Go Wings!

2008-10-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

Killin' time. At school. In my classroom. It's 7:09 pm and I'm waiting for my sister. She's teaching a class in our library and then we're going to grab a bite. I rearranged my room, including desks, table, bookcases, couch, and posters/charts on the walls. I reorganized some drawers and sharpened pencils. Copied off the math test for tomorrow, which I must say, I think the kids are ready for, cross your fingers they do well. I'm checking email and now I'm blogging. And looking around, wondering what I can clean next....

You'd think I'd be planning lessons and reading professional books. Umm...... no. Oh yeah, I need to buy some concert tickets! Then I'll probably get back to grading those papers..... sigh.

2008-10-08T06:44:00.000-07:00

I can't believe Carlee is 15. And in high school. My sister's kids are the closest thing I have to my own children, and it's really been something to watch them grow and develop into their own selves. I've loved all the stages...... the infant years, when she was a toddler, the first time she said my name (su-si). My sister and I would say, "No, Aunt Suzi"with the emphasis on the aunt. So, that's what Carlee started saying, "Aunt Su-si". Putting together ALL the toys at Christmas, especially anything to do with Barbies. Reading tons of books, going to soccer games, admiring her schoolwork, chatting about things, swimming together, when she played with my hair (loved it!), hanging out at my wedding reception (I think Carlee and I were together more than I was with the groom.....).

Now she's a sophomore. She is passionate and smart and beautiful. She has a wicked sense of humor and can drop one-liners. I call her just to chat on the phone about nothing. We talk about music, school, friends, boys. She's given me advice about life and it's pretty good, I must say! Soon we'll go to our first concert together - fun. I've been looking forward to the relationship we'll have as adults, but I'm loving this age now. Can't wait to see what she does in her life! No doubt, it will be awesome. I love you, Carlee.

PS - I have the best nephew too, but he deserves his own post!

Hanging out.....

2008-10-04T20:39:00.000-07:00

Just finished watching Sex and the City, the movie. I loved it. There were many things I could relate to. One of those movies where I laughed and cried. Perfect movie for a Saturday night when I'm laying on the couch with a cold.

Dang it.

2008-10-02T21:31:00.000-07:00

One of most awful feelings in the world for me is when I think or realize that something I've said or done has caused pain or hurt in another person. I just hate it (like most people do, I'm sure). Truly, it's just horrid for me. I would do anything to fix it or take it back or..... I don't know what. To put it plainly, it sucks.

So, where's the simple pleasure in this? At the risk of sounding cheesy, it's when I think about the power of love and acceptance that people who care about one another have for each other. I'm blessed to have friends and family who love me and accept me, even when I'm not at my best. I hope those around me know how I feel about them. I'm sorry, my friend.

Friends

2008-10-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

Just a quick thought on a Thursday morning...... I love my friends. That's it. The end. La la

Slowing down

2008-09-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

I've got too much going on, or at least that's the way it feels. Big class that demands a lot of attention and energy, responsibilities in writing and math at work, student council, trying new things in writing with my students, keeping up with my home (and it's just me!), having time with my friends and family.

So, I need to be sure I include time for me. Time to read or sit outside or think about things.... that kind of stuff. To do what's best for myself and try not to feel guilty or wonder what others think. Time to enjoy the "simple things". I'm working on it.

Me and my nose ring

2008-09-29T15:12:00.000-07:00

I think nose rings look great on people. The little diamond studs I'm talking about, not the big rings. I've been thinking about getting one for a while, so this past weekend I did a little research on places, drove down to Seattle and got my nose pierced.

Here's what I learned: I'm not a nose ring person. I still think they're awesome looking and will always admire them on those who wear them. It's just..... it wasn't me. After a solid seventeen hours, I took it out. So, I'm back to my original idea of getting a tattoo of a palm tree...... the question is, where to put it??

A glimpse of a classroom....

2008-09-27T09:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I gave a Friday test in school. I gave instructions for the kids to turn their test in to their number (each of them have a box) when finished. I repeated it two times.

A boy comes up, holds his test out and says, "Here."

My reply, "Turn that in to your number." And then to the class, "When you finish, your test goes to your number."

Another boy comes up, "Where do I turn this in?"

Me again, "To your number." And another reminder to the whole class.

As I'm answering an email, a third boy comes up, "Ms. Miller, do I turn this in to my number?"

Me, giving up now, "Yes."

Seriously, a girl walks toward me, she's about seven feet from me, I look up and say, "To your number." She turns and walks away.

What the??? What I want to do is freak out and share my opinion with the class...... this time, however, I choose to say, "La la" and carry on with my day.

Honestly. I need a wood post in my room to bang my head against!

Long week....

2008-09-26T21:21:00.001-07:00

Sometimes the week is just way too long, seriously. It's never going to end, the days last forever, you wake up tired every day, your house looks like crap, etc. Guess what? This was one of those weeks. All that has kept me going today, from the moment I woke up, is the knowledge that tomorrow is a non-work day. I CANNOT WAIT.

Curriculum Night

2008-09-23T22:14:00.000-07:00

It's over for another year. To all the teachers in the world whose big night has passed, and to all of those whose night will be over soon, cheers to you. Short, sweet and to the point tonight. Ahhhh.....

Pets

2008-09-22T21:47:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure why, but Junior is so affectionate lately. It's like he can't get enough of me. Right now, as I type, he is sitting next to me, staring at me. The only reason he isn't on me is because I just pushed him off. Maybe cats go through phases of really being into their owners or something. Whatever the case, it's kind of nice to be so wanted, but at other times it's a bit much! It's actually kind of cracking me up...... he's so needy!

I'm just saying.......

2008-09-21T18:01:00.000-07:00

I'm totally having fun with this blog thing. Seriously. And I don't really know why. Oh well, la la!

Cash flow

2008-09-21T17:53:00.001-07:00

Bought a condo in March and although I love it and it's my OWN home, I'm feeling the finances (or lack thereof) big time. So, I'm going to give the jewelry another try. My goal tonight is to make a flyer for the new catalog and and put one of each in peoples' boxes tomorrow at work. I have to just remember that I'm not pushing them, I'm just offering them the chance to buy some jewelry, either for themselves or for gifts. I'm not going full board on it, but I just might be able to give myself some walking around money, which would be nice!

Don't hate us because we're beautiful.....

2008-09-21T10:33:00.000-07:00

Red Hook shows outdoor movies on Thursdays in the summer. Cindy and I scouted out the schedule and one movie screamed out to us.....TOP GUN! Yes!! On the calendar it went and our anticipation grew! Finally, it was August 14th, movie night. We got there early, were able to find a good spot, and hit the beer garden. In the beer garden is where we noticed people sporting these sweet-looking glasses. Quickly we made it to the front gate and got our own pair of.... wait for it....... Top Gun aviator glasses! We admired each other, got another beer and then the movie started. Very, very fun. People yelling out the lines, applauding at the cheesy parts, whistling and cat-calling during the volleyball scene, shouting out, "We love you, Goose!" when he sadly passes away.... Definitely big fun. Sadly, Cindy and I both lost our aviators, but man, did we look HOT wearing them! I love you, sissy.

Oktoberfest, Fremont style....

2008-09-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

Rainy, gray day in Seattle..... perfect for trying a new beer, eating fair food and listening to music by people I've never heard of! The best news? I have a totally water proof jacket just for occasions like this! I actually don't mind the rain today. It's kind of refreshing and feels like fall in Seattle, so I'm not really complaining about it today. Great football weather too, but that's another story.

Very cool!

2008-09-20T09:37:00.000-07:00

I just found out how to add a picture from the web to my page. Thanks, James!